Technically..

I am a useless person.....

Raining

When it was sunny day it gives me a warm to ease my pains away. When I'd fallen in love with you and I'll never let you go.

But weird It's raining almost everyday and every time.

Raining symbolized as sad moment and I use to appreciate because i'll think that it's a bit of an "emo" feeling way. My face wet of tear when i walked out as the sky dropped me a bath of tears last midnight. I forced to walk all around under the crying sky because of you. I really don't meant to hurt you because you came to my life. But you hurt me countless times. If you wanna know how much you hurt me, i'll catch the rain drop, the amount of rain drop i caught mean how much you really hurt me.

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November, 11, 2010

3.41am

831 - I love you ♥

  

831 - 8 letters, 3 words, 1 meaning, I Love You!  ♥ 

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Belongs

I gave you my pride because I thought you were the one, I will proud of myself if I have you because you're the one i wanted. But at the meanwhile, when another boy who is willing to come along with us and you left me as fast as you could, did you know that you really mean it to me? I thought about everything and how stupidity I was thinking you were going to change and that you really loved me. You told everyone what you're going to have him before you even let me know, so why is it that I had to be the last one to know? You don't think it could be worse than that? Let me ask you, what if I tell you that I hang out a lot of girls everyday? Are you going to cry for me whole nights? Of course no, it was just a game.

Although there's lot of girls I met with, but I found no one who is belongs to me.. I think I rather being alone than with one and noisy with a large group of friends. - Belonger

Duplicate

You called me to accompany you for the trips and I used to mingle with.  I could feel the shine that lightened toward my world. As I do,  I will always miss your beautiful eyes, your calm, and lovely voice every moments, yet you're completely different from other girls I met with. But I feel this guilty expressing myself towards you. I know what I feel, but my explanation covers the truth and the truth is you're my.........

Can I with someone exactly likes her?

Meant

I found someone there's much better than my precious one.. I never thought I would be so fortunate enough in this life when I saw you.
It was such a happy moment when I could get into our nice conversations when sport's day, my world gone bright just in a second. When I looked at your face, you are something that I can't let go. But I don't know how to do myself better than other else for you.
On that day, when I heard that you would going back to hometown, my heart shattered into pieces. And you left me with inconvenienced, you waved goodbye to me.. I shattered again myself with the thread with blow.
Plus I fell into ruins, sometimes it hurts to breathe when I wake up in very night because every breath I took, proved that I can't live without you. like a shivering from flight feeling, an empty feeling nothing because I think about how it would be, if you weren't at my side and then I
kept wondering that you really know how much you meant it to me.. - Meanie

Mistaken

You promised me you will never leave me. You promised me you will forever remain at my side. It was just a crush at first when we met, and before i realized I started falling in love with you. It was the night as any other night when you proposed me, everything went right and smoothly until the day. I found myself so happy again being with you every moment and everytime. I dreamt of you everydays and every nights and wishing our love would be like fairy tales.

Through my whole life I have always wanted to find that one person. My companion. I didn’t date so much because everyone around me wasn’t looking for the same thing I was looking for. I hope you know I care of you and I wouldn't abandon you if you need a friend or a shoulder to lean on. I feel so happy when I saw you at any moments.
You are precious and you are still in my heart with this such a season that I loved the most.

Seasoned.. I was the WRONG!
Why you betrayed me and went away so sudden?
and proposed your friendship asking back the love we shared for days.
You took away my heart! Gaahhhhhhhh, I am so helpless today.

I cant stop myself from loving you, I cant hate you.
I gave you my heart and am left with nothing to start a new life

Nowadays, am just wondering why you took my heart away..

It was too late, it was too late for me to hate you.

I was lost, lost from your memory, memory in my world, my world gone dark.
And it made my heart shatter down when I realized my Mistaken.

I did a mistake by falling in love with you,
I did a mistake by kissing you,
I did a mistake by trusting you my love, am a fool.

Again till now, you're nowhere to be seen.. and left me with shattered heart.

Cause I have no choice, I need to go now and I don't have much time left.. - Mistaken

♥ Dying Heart ♥

I just hope and wait for you to come back, but in my stupidity, we end up there. I taught myself to forget you though it kills me so hard. From the time I saw myself contented of not having you in my life, god prayed me. From the day I started to ease your pain I know how much I would regret after all. But yet I never mind, as long as you can live happily.

We spent time together at SP, Sunway Pyramid. And I found myself so happy with you.

Days had past I realized again how much you mean to me, deeper than before.

I also saw you so contented, never having a blot of pain anymore.

I just think everything is so fine and forever be fine.

And you know what, I called you last night,

I want to see you again,

I am so happy that I can’t wait for next evening to see you again at your house.

But I’m here asking for your permission if you will allow me to be happy forever.

Tomorrow then,

I am so happy seeing you again.

Wearing those smile came from your very heart.

Then shocked me for those very long cover my head with your hands,

then you whisper these:

“ Thank you for the help,

I know I'm still in love with you,

and I appreciate that very much.

I know that when I am happy you’ll be very happy too,"

Breaking myself into pieces,

You call me to go back ASAP.. Okay..

you kissed me goodbye and walk away without seeing how much you love, kill me.

Though that would be a forever wound..,

I can take it even forever just to make you reach your forever happiness.

I’ll just be here with my... - Dying Heart. ♥

Appear

Just when she appeared in my dream again yesterday..

Forget

I'm getting over you so fast now that I've found someone much better then you ever were to me.
In only a couple weeks, I've realized that I care more for her then I ever cared for you!
Now doesn't that make you feel great?
Probably not, but after every hurtful thing you've said or done to me, I think it's your turn to take some of my pain that you've caused. That's all what I can do it for you is to.. - Forget you.

Heartless

You don't even feel any guilt about what you did,
and that is usually that you have heartless and care for other, but not me.
Now you tell people I'm your friend, exactly an old friend.
You try and make me jealous by hanging out all the boys with you and trying hard to choose one, till I can't even describe my feeling now as you've changed.
I guess it makes you feel better by saying those things because you know it makes me hurt so much.
All those night I yearning and crying for you by shattering my hopes, and shattering my heart.
I can never reach you because you will never come with me again after we broke up, I've the reason why.
Seem I've to stay with loneliness again and again till the end..

Fade

Whenever I thinking about you,
My world has gone bright.
I know that I'm not made for you,
but I will always love you.

Love can be with dark sides too,
Let the worse its be resulted,
I can see your smiles that crept on my face and the happy tears that ran down from my eyes. I see your warm, gentle eyes looking at me, and I can feel your presence when I close my eyes, but when I reach you, I feel slipping away...
It's like my dream is fading away.

But they said memories will last forever.

Silencer

Why am i so idle instead of finding a new heart, everyone ask me why. yet seem that you still care about me, so i can feel a senses of love again, and something else instead. So I say it’s just nothing, but they know that's something.

The reason is you!
Once again, they say,

“You can only have one more change to take her heart back,
don’t need to worry about it, you can do it.”
Should I just support or ignore their words?
Started to feel much confidences on myself. You’re used to mingle me, so that my life is still existence in this world..

Unfortunately, seem you did support me to find a new love, exactly, yet i argue it,
so my valiant soul exhausted easily, because I know I am hurting so deep inside.
Forced me to extricate my own good changes. What a wasted.

Seasoned, there’s nothing i could ever say that could really take the pain away.
to feel apologize about some past things, wishing it had not happened again, perharps, your life won’t be exacerbated again..
I hurt you so now I guess you have to hurt me.
wish i could just forget about you.
If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden.
I hate being a silencer. - A silent moment

P.S : Being single is good..

Liar

█ Q : You promised me you will never leave me, but what's with you now? A liar..

Lost

We begin to realize that we share many things in common that seem to be more coincidence before.
Feeling a bond of fate, we grow closer.
Destiny can have a good side, but dark side too.
We had our good times and I am content to let those two years we spent together be nothing but memories.

And now, do you ever think about me?
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep?
in the middle of the night when you awake..
are you calling out my name?
It's only me missing you..

But I just realized that I don't even have the right to be jealous,
I just, just won't voice out anything from now on.

Because we had been in the separated ways,
There's nowhere to be seen. - Lost

P.S: The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have.Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

VLRO

VLRO
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Candd / CrystalGoh
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Aimee / Jess - [friendster]
Shion / Khie - [facebook]
Leina
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Theryln
Taemin / Desmund - [facebook]
Milk / Tai - [facebook]
Reactz / Jye - [facebook]
Remington
Fire
Last Time
Wenz
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United
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Cupid
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[High School Klang] International Understanding's Day 2010 (IU Day)

By: Daisuke

High School Klang's International Understanding Day is back!
Last year's one was successfully held.
This year will be even better!
The chosen country of China and USA
The theme of Mystery of the East and West.
It is certified to rock your socks off,
Laugh till your stomach hurts,
Wash Your eyes on the Culture of China and USA,
Eat till you want no more.

Bookings are open to everyone and anyone.
Bring along your friends; ALL OF THEM!
For this is one IU Day not to be missed.
Seating on that day are by tables of 10 person per table.
Table places will be on a booking first come first served basis.
So hurry up to grab the best seats! Its RM10 per person!

The dress code is:
For Interactors - your interact uniform
For Leos - your leo uniform
For other guests - formal attire

For More Info:
Tee Hock Han 016 - 3010 879
John Fung 012 - 3340 811 / 016 - 3433 095

Date:	Saturday, May 8, 2010
Time:	8:30am - 1:30pm
Location:	Dewan Putra, SMK Tinggi Klang

More info to come soon! Stay notified!

[Let's Be] GoSu Kim Kyung Jin -Sniper-

(This guy is just good-looking guy. :])

My brother asked me to play SuddenAttack SEA, I played.
Later, he asked me to watch this.. sniper pro(the powerful one not the stupid one) through YouTube.
I thought this sniper was just, YES, a normal player, a normal game, a normal speed, a normal interest, but NO! WRONG WRONG!
This is not what that I even thought!
I said "Wth, Is he a Human......................, an Allien?"
Unbelievable!! How the world could ever snipe as fast as him as he made 0.03 second shown below? No hack, No Bot, No other programs that could support him. Yes! a Human, Human with brains, heart, red-colored blood, and HPG (Human Plays Game).

Biodata:
Let's Be Clan and Sniper Kim Kyung Jin with TRG-21!

















*Here*






























Either you believe it or not, it's depend on you and the.

Just that..

Never thought that I'll miss you this much...

Never thought you'll be gone forever...

You left so many things pending and

I'll never be completed without you...

Can I just be on your side always...?

Just that, being alone is painful...

•๋●On ‘A Wednesday’•๋●

It is precisely a year, and it was just one word ‘Hi’. I thought it to be just another casual conversation which would end in one session. Lost and disappointed from life, staring hopelessly on the screen, I spotted you. I don’t know what? ….what made me say ‘Hi’ to you. It was 18th of August, 08. Time rolled on and before I could realize a year came to an end. A year of hope and despair, a year of laughter and tears, a year of endless effort. Effort to make you realize what life is all about, effort to help you understand humans, and above all yourself. Effort to bring you out from the darkness.

If you can recall and realize from all the past efforts of mine that from day one the driving force was to fill the emptiness of your life. But probably you never realized that. Parallely, I was putting in efforts to redefine your beliefs and values, so that you can live a more enriching life. My efforts were perceived as my attitude problem. The more I tried to show you the reality of life, with an intention that you may come out of illusions and live a more rewarding life, the more you attacked me.
You talk of human goodness. Is betraying anyone is human goodness? Is being revengeful to someone who has never harmed you is human goodness? Is using people for pleasure is human goodness? Is deception human goodness? This is all you have being doing. You ask for forgiveness. Forgiveness is given for mistakes. And that which happens once/rarely is a mistake. Which happens again and again is not a mistake, it is a habit. You are habitual to wrong-doings and sins. It is like your second nature.

I saw a ray of hope. I felt something is there in you which can change you, for your own betterment. I still don’t know whether my judgment was right or wrong. But you started attacking the one who came forward to your help. It was not easy for me, still I took the risk, and after every fall I stood up. But gradually and gradually I realized that during this effort of mine, to help you gain, I was loosing. I lost my peace, my family’s privacy and my own faith in goodness.

You have given me enough reasons not to trust anybody, not to help anybody and not to believe in human goodness. But I know that it would be a great loss to me only, if I start believing in all this; and I don’t want this to happen with me. I believe in the ‘Power’. I don’t have any power. Don’t be afraid of me. Whatever you have lost in your life, it is a punishment and warning from that ‘Power’. It is high time that you should start fearing this power, so that you may not loose any further.

My life came to a standstill, as I invested all of my emotions, time and energy in you. Believe me I am a very weak person – physically and mentally. I extracted all of me to give you. But now I know, I should move on with my life; don’t know where I’ll land up. And don’t even know whether I’ll be able to move on or not. Just too lost and exhausted.
But at least I want to try.

No tall claims-I have not given you my life, but have given you one precious year of my life and what all I could. Keep it safely; it is for your own sake. There are many more things which I wanted to make you realize but you have just left me hopeless and disappointed. Last but not the least- practice what all you preach. Do some self-introspection. Redefine your values and ethics, and mend your deeds before it is too late.

Bye, 23rd December, 2009.

Dai's drawing picture!

Boo.. I love my own drawing very much! <3

Blind

The park bench was deserted as I reads.

Beneath the long, straggly branches of an old willow tree.
Disillusioned by life with good reason.
For the world was intent on dragging me down.

And if that weren’t enough to ruin my day,
A young girl out of breath approached me.
She stood right before me with her head tilted down,
And said with great excitement, “Look what I found!”

In her hand was a flower, and what a pitiful sight,
With its petals all worn not enough rain, or too little light.
Wanting her to take her dead flower and go off to play,
I faked a small smile and then shifted away.



But instead of retreating she sat next to my side
And placed the flower to his nose and declared with overacted surprise,
“It sure smells pretty and it’s beautiful, too.
“That’s why I picked it, here, it’s for you.”

The weed before me was dying or dead.
Not vibrant of colours, black and white.
But I knew I must take it, or she might never leave.
So I reached for the flower, and replied, “Just what I need.”

But instead of her placing the flower in my hand,
She held it mid air without reason or plan.
It was then that I noticed for the very first time
That weed-toting girl could not see: she was blind.

I heard the voice quiver, tears shone like the sun
As I thanked her for picking the very best one.
“You’re welcome,” she smiled,
A bright smile like a shining force which toward me.

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind.
She hated everyone, except she loving me.
I was always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world,
she would marry me.

Through the eyes of a blind little girl, at last I could see
The problem was not with the world; the problem was me.
And for all of those times I myself had been blind,
I vowed to see the beauty in life, and appreciate every second that’s mine. Blinder

*Sent by mayday, 11st of December 2008.
Arigatou Gozaimasu!

Destiny

You told me your life, and i told you mine, we told each other everything would be forever fine.
Love is not a game that we played, what you need is love.
Yet love is the most exquisite, an awesome and unbearable silence..

I had to decide, unless I had the change.
I wont give up no matter what I’ll be waiting for you.
I swear that you’ll always be mine, forever love I promise you someday we’ll be together forever love,
Once again if I chose her, it killed you inside so hard.
We’ll come through, so when you finally come, i’ll be here,
you’re not brave enough to tell me,
you cant ignore away,
you’re not strong enough to walk away,
you cant walk away,
you’re just what i want,
so i will wait until that i have our love, I willing to wait.

I will know in time, hopefully one day….
One day I gonna realize what I really missed you, just keep me right there in your dreams.
There’s the point where i just dont care how long it takes,
our love it’s depends on our destiny,
but if what we waiting for each other is forever loves that we needs that is the road and nothing can be changed on our Fate.

SeireiteiRO

SeireiteiRO (13 months) (Best server for me :])

Seireitei Ragnarok Online was originally founded by Chen - aka GM Byakuya - in December 2007. GM Steven, the new (and current) administrator, took over SeireiteiRO March 2008.
The rates are 26,000x/26,000x/75% (Super-super high rate server)
Server Information / Rates:

• Max Base Level: 1000
• Max Job Level: 250
• Max Stats: 1000
• Max ASPD: 195
• 100% Item Drop
• 75% Card Drop

Thanks to..
[GM] Chen
[GM] Steven
Jasc / Steven Bu - [facebook]
Xuan Yuan
Apollyon / Adrian
SinCross of Fate / Adrian - [facebook]
Xei
Gescean
Aviation
Jiro
Instinct - [facebook]
Ketsuki
-Dai- (Not me~)
[D]ai[S]u[K]e (Yah, me, I met myself here. :])
Dan
Jarwin
Ragu
Glock
Moy
[GM] Miles - [facebook]
Ryuukira
[GM] Ryu Shin
[GM] Vince
Zabuza
Ichimaru Gin
Paper Heart
Symen
Eddy - [facebook]
Sunny
Kurosaki
Mark / Moy
Shin / Saranghaeyo
[GM] Elijah
Aero / Daniel - [facebook]
Derek
Duy
IceTea
JOOSYXiong
Lethal
Skye / Chloe
Vice
Cotton Teddy / Megan - [facebook]
[GM] Azn / Maria
[GM] Genesis
Sophia
Aimee
[GM] Sakunai / Tse Yan - [facebook]
[GM] Yuki / Virginia - [facebook]
Manah
Bri
Amy

[GM] Oinkie / Catherine - [facebook]
Gun Bolg
Iodine
Kurau
Alyciah
Rukia / Ars
[GM] Dowie / Mishell - [facebook]
Rachel
Kuma Kuma
Sarielle / Arya
Nazgler
Mory
Carli / Melody
Moka / Vivian - [facebook]
Meiody
Amy
Nadine
Sandy
Eileen / Chocolate
Astrella - [facebook]
Massie
Christine
[GM] Cory / TinyJetpack
Bonnie - [facebook]
Kiisumii
Light
Kimmie
Nina Sakura

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